A word for you

I really would like to help you but I just don't know how. I don't think me being at your fingertips has helped you move on, and on the other hand I know being just out of reach is what hurts the most. It can be quite confusing. I hate that you are hurting. I don't know if it is warranted or not but nevertheless I feel guilty somehow, even though I never did anything to intentionally hurt you. I still believe I was only temporal in your life, at least for the purpose of opening you up. I'm sure all that still confuses you but look at where you are now to where you were 1 year ago. If you look hard enough I know you will find many positives that you can be thankful for. Try to get comfortable on the high wire you're walking, realize it is just another route, a passage on your journey. Wherever the road may lead gather the tidbits of happiness along the way. The sun still shines through the rain though the clouds block it from view. So what if it's raining, the beautiful flowers are standing tall thankful for the drink-look at them, they're just as pretty in the rain. Is it really that dark and gloomy around you or has your focus been misdirected? Listen as the birds talk to God and sing to you, can you still hear them? Smell the fresh scents in the moistened air, that's Gods refreshing breath of life.
Look around at all he has created just for you, the colors, the sounds. There is love all around you. You are never alone, Papa is always watching over you. He hears your cries, he feels your pain. Your growing pains are birthing a new, more beautiful you, keep pressing on. Don't let the rain stop you from seeing the gifts he gives you throughout each and every day. You are so blessed. Don't think you are not loved just because those around you don't know how to help you on this walk, sometimes they are barely standing themselves. I've seen those around you, as I've told you before-you are wealthy beyond measure in love. Keeponkeepin'on

...D..

Time...

Time is a very peculiar thing. It last forever yet there is never enough of it. It can help you or it can hurt you. It can be your friend or it can be your enemy. Time can move either slow or fast and yet still remain constant. Time can be tracked but never captured. You can never out run it nor will it leave you behind-it remains encompassed around you. Time can make pain seem like it last forever yet it never fails to make the heartache stop. Time is like the wind, you feel its presence but it cannot be seen. It leaves a definite path through history yet it cannot be travelled upon. Time seems like it is infinite but I think it is created or born every millisecond. Time...time..shoot, I'm out of it; time to run!
Keeponkeepin'on

...D..

Ridin' The Rails

Good Monday morning! Well, it's not the best I've had but I am healthy and alive. Everything is in cruise mode right now, nothing spectacular happening but not too much drama either, although it lurks just waiting for the moment to leap out. I just can't believe where the time goes, there is so much I want to do but I never have enough time to do it. I know, we all have this problem. So do we try to do too much? Is there too many tasks on our plate, too many irons in the fire? I suppose it is better to have too much to do than not and just have idle time to waste. After all, goals are important and plans help keep us somewhat structured. We just have to realize that things change and completion dates may need pushed back, that doesn't make us non-productive. So anyway, I guess I'll keep planning and looking forward and setting new goals and adjusting time tables for old goals and well, just keep chuggin' along. Such is life, it is one long train ride. There are many stops, many junctions. Some stops are short while others may leave you feeling stranded at times. Just keep shovelling coal in the fire and if it gets too hot then by all means blow off some steam. Hope you have an awesome week, just hang on and keep ridin' the rails! Keeponkeepin'on


...D..

Ain't life grand...?

Another day in paradise, just another day at the office, another chance to live the American dream...yeah, screw all that. I am just about to my breaking point with my job. Constant changes from people that don't have a freaking clue what customer service is because they come from a manufacturing background, strong attitudes that think they do no wrong...God I love proving them otherwise (and yes they hate me for it). The most recent change doesn't necessarily affect me but it may reach some of my employees. New Attendance policy put in place effective September 8, 2008.....but it retros back to September 8, 2007. Occurrences used to fall off after 90 days of perfect attendance, now they fall off after 12 consecutive months. Yep, you got it, all those that fell off in the last 12 months will now be picked back up and placed on your attendance record. If you have 6 occurrences for the 12mo period you are terminated. We have employees that are within a 1/4 occurrence now so retro that back and they're done. I know, I know, they are the ones that got themselves into the situation in the first place but they were abiding by the previous policy. That's kind of like getting thrown in jail for eating an apple 6 months ago because effective today eating apples is illegal. I understand the new changes and why they are put in place, I even agree that it is a better policy. I don't have a problem with the new policy going into effect but it needs to start on its effective date.It just doesn't make sense to hold someone accountable for a new policy going back a year when the person was abiding by the current policy at that time. Anyway, this just adds to the frustration that my job has been creating in me over the last couple months. I am being pushed closer and closer to the door. GRRRR...
Keeponkeepin'on

...D..

So much to do and so little time..

Sheesh!!! Why is there so little time in a day? It doesn't matter how productive you are there always seems to be more that could have gotten done. Lately it seems I just haven't had the time to blog and when I do sign on to give it a whirl my mind drops back to punt! Most of the time I have more thoughts than I could put on paper but lately I think I haven't slowed down enough to even think. Life is good right now, kinda wading into new waters in my personal life. It's different but not at all how I imagined. It's amazing what releases can happen in our lives once we tear the walls down and open up to whatever may come our way. I wonder, what have I missed over the years due to my blindness, my walls? Hmm...interesting,I just received a text. After almost three years my ex-wife just sent me a text telling me goodbye. Don't misunderstand, we have spoken on several occasions, what I'm saying is that she just now decided to let me go. I write this only because she tried to slap me in the face with my "openness" and since I am writing about that very thing I thought I would share. She just wished me luck in all my endeavors and adventures that I am enjoying because I am so open to life and new things. She then proceeded to tell me that I was not truly open to new things because if I were I would have given her another chance, that I would have tried seeing her in a new light, her "now" opposed to the 18 year old that I married (and was married to 14 years). Interesting?! So I wonder if she thinks I don't really know her after 17 years? Has she made such a change in the last few years that I would find new love where old love never existed? For my disclaimer I will say she truly is a wonderful person but we got married too young and I just never knew what love was. This too she made a point to mention that now I know what love is and I should have given "us" another chance. Well, I don't understand how people think you can just fall in love with anyone you choose. If this were the case no one would be alone, everyone would be happy and the world would be a simpler place. Reality check! You can lead a heart to love but you can't make it fall. The heart is a funny thing, it falls for whom it will, when it will and knows no bounds in doing so and on the flip side when you find someone you would like to fall in love with the heart lays dormant, go figure? So, now that my mind has been swayed from the original thought process I think I will get back to work, after all, there is so much to do and so little time....
Keeponkeepin'on

...D..